Portrait of a NymphoBrainiac #2: Audrey Love

Audrey Love. – NYC/LA Model/Pin Up/Dancer/Designer.

I have known this fierce nymph for a while now, and watching her evolve has been a great pleasure. From a girl with a head-full-of-dreams, to a woman actually manifesting those wishes…her quiet beauty and gentle poise are enough to topple hearts and intrigue even the most hardened cynic.

When I asked her for an interview (via text, actually) on her thoughts, feelings, and interests regarding sex, she hesitated, “trying to find the words.” Part of her hesitation was that she felt that there were so many “kinks” and “connections,” to explore that she felt unable to answer from a place of knowing, which made me question:

Do we ever REALLY know what we’re “all about” when it comes to sex?

When I look back on my own sexual life-experiences I wonder if there is any real discernible pattern. Certainly not from the outside looking in, but to me…it’s been a many-layered kaleidoscope, an evolution that (oddly) seems to have taken me right back to where I started…but I digress…

“Where I started”…sounds eerily familiar to where my young friend is today:

The acknowledgement of the self as a sexually powerful creature and yet, not quite knowing what to do with that power…that, desire.

Oh, What to Do…with that feeling of being split-off or separated from your unfocused sexual potential, your unrequited desire.

Perhaps, our sexuality is best understood as a mirrored-self.

A self of exploration, an experiential or felt-self.

Well, Audrey…your journey as a NymphoBrainiac has just begun…and as my sexual-self smiles knowingly and winks back at yours, she says:

“I’ll see you on the other side, my Love…”

xxx, Dr.NB

(Photo taken by me with a Nikon D5500 at Brooklyn Botanic Gardens, Sakura Matsuri 2017)

 

The Vanilla Party: A Study in Sweet Irony

NymphoBrainiacs strive to explore, indulge, and understand all things erotic…so when I heard about a new underground artistically-themed NYC alt event…November 16th’s The Vanilla Party: Aftermath…I knew I had to indulge. And while I am happy to report that there was nothing “vanilla” about this kinky evening…there was far more than even I expected. As creator SaxDMA explains TVP is:

NYC’s Latest Alternative Art and Fashion Interaction Attraction Alternative & Peculiar Performances of Epic Proportion

Yes, it sounds boastful…yet, TVP delivers! The crowd is a mix of downtown eclectic with a goth influence and a fetish feel. The performances repel as much as they seduce…and an overall vibe that collectively encouraged collaboration (artistic..and otherwise) amongst its guests. The next installment will be late winter/early fall and is not to be missed! xxx dr.c.

I Love the Simplicity of Strip Clubs…

As an adult, I have enjoyed venturing into strip clubs with fair regularity. I appreciate the fact that you get what you pay for, or that expectations have a high potential to be met–as long as your desires aren’t outside of what the club can offer.

And in the end, I love going home…either with myself or my lover and to be quite frank, finishing the job (tease) off!

Yes, I enjoy the pure entertainment of sex and all activities that surround the act…which don’t have to be actual sex, rather a lead-in if you will.

That said, today I stumbled upon an article describing some establishments that go above and beyond expectations…some of which I have been to, I’ll let you guess which!

Here is a list of some of the…peculiarities…enjoy, and if you have ever been to any of these, DO TELL:

1. Climax

This now-defunct drive-thru strip club allowed customers to watch dancers strip through a window… without ever leaving the comfort of their cars. Most customers reportedly made pit stops for only two or three minutes, paying $5 per minute to the Pittsburgh-area establishment.

2. Pirate’s Cove

This Portland-based strip club is dedicated to pirate lovers looking for both types of booty. In a design choice that Jack Sparrow himself would love, the outside of the club is shaped as a large jug of rum.

3. Silver Dollar Strip Club

Around Halloween time, the Silver Dollar Strip Club in Oregon transforms into a haunted house, where patrons can wander through spooky rooms. Costumed strippers aim to frighten patrons as well as turn them on.

4. Mos Eisley Cantina

This Los Angeles joint is usually your run-of-the-mill strip club. But bi-monthly, it has Star Wars-themed nights where girls dress up as storm troopers and other characters, and strip down past their Princess Leah-themed gold bikinis.

5. Clermont Lounge

The Atlanta-based club reportedly employs strippers older than the norm (aged about 45 to 60), for those looking for a more mature experience. Yelp reviewers jokingly write that this is where strippers go to retire and where men go to relive The Graduate.

6. 2001 Odyssey

In this space-themed strip club in Tampa, Fla., stars and asteroids glow on the ceiling. Everything on the ground — and on strippers’ bodies — is white and glows in the black light, much like Space Mountain in Disneyland …if Space Mountain had strippers.

7. School House

Alumni of the Pioneer school in Negoa, Ill., were outraged when their alma mater was transformed into a strip club with a schoolhouse theme. Multiplication tables and a copy of the constitution still hang on the walls next to the stripper poles.

8. Saint Venus Theater

This roving, amateur strip club in New York City changes locations every week. The club caters mainly to young financiers looking for a girl-next-door experience — many of the young strippers have college degrees and work at start-ups or galleries during the day. The college-dorm feel leaves patrons requesting dates almost as frequently as lap dances.

9. The Dancing Bare

This Atlanta strip club played only Grateful Dead songs. But since clientele can only stand to listen to “Casey Jones” so many times as they watch women dance, so the club unsurprisingly closed only 24 hours after opening.

10.  Casa Diablo

Now notorious for one of its strippers receiving Tweets from Cory Booker, this Portland-based strip club only serves vegan food.

(Read more: http://newsfeed.time.com/2013/09/26/americas-10-strangest-strip-clubs/#ixzz2g1HIwjoE)

Give Me 10 Minutes…I Will Show You My Fantasy

Sometimes the night lends itself to playful imaginings…

Sometimes…I have to undress in order to play dress-up…

For you.

This night I mingled fantasies with LastnightsParty.com at Webster Hall’s in famous Trash party, with host Kris Khaos…

and what a lovely time we had mixing nothing but

lipstick,

Jeffery Campbell,

tattoos

sound equipment,

a mic,

 and a tongue.

Thank you for loaning me your lens…and cheers to weekend memories

xxx conchita.

Introductions NEEDED on this Thrilling Thursday: Meet “Minxie” of MINXINX – Artist, Blogger, & Generally Amazing Woman!

I wanted to take a minute to introduce you to a like-minded and extremely talented young woman, an artist and fellow-blogger with a distinct attitude and style that embodies both sexiness AND strength! I think her self-introduction does her justice:

“To keep things basic I have a big heart, a loud mouth, a passion to dance my troubles away and I’m painter, artist, whichever one you prefer. I have pushed myself to make the name Minxinx not only to stand out but to ‘wow’ you. Over the years this character has evolved into so much more. Being plastered on walls, canvases, bags, t- shirts, and naked women. Yes, a naked woman on a naked woman. So here I am, ready to move this forward. I am willing, driven, and most definitely in control… and no one can stop me.”

— PLEASE CHECK OUT HER BLOG and support her artwork…which is ALL UP for sale! This is the artist with her work…which is pretty fantastic:

She is currently doing a series called “Mini You” which she describes:

Lately I’ve been getting a lot of questions about the mini sketches I draw of my outfits. I’m getting many requests that you guys want your own. So of course I aim to please.
I’ll charge a small fee of $5 for each. A tiny sketch, nothing fancy.
Starting now if you would like to have your own mini-you all you have to do is this:
* Email me at 2minxinx@gmail.com 
* Include a picture of yourself from head to toe
* Subject: Mini You
I’ll respond with how to make the payment and I’ll get started right away! That simple!

Pretty cool, if you ask me…the humor in her style is contageous…I always find myself smiling when I look at one of her images!

HAPPY THRILLING THURSDAY…xxx c.

VIDEO from Pacha PeepShow EROTIC Performance with Kat ForTra

I love live erotic performance!

Whether I am the voyeur (aka “audience member”) or the exhibitionist (aka “performer”) I LOVE making an intimate act, public. There is an incredible rush to share desire and arousal not only with one…but with MANY.

In these special shared moments, emotions seem to multiply and develop ten-fold until a crescendo of energy creates frenzy!

It doesn’t always occur, but when it does…it is an orgasm of the  collective soul!

The Pacha PeepShow with Vargas was one such performance. I had the pleasure of collaborating with Kat ForTra ( http://www.ForTraDVD.com ) and indeed, it was all my pleasure and quite a show. A friend of mine captured some of it (Carnell thank you), and I pass it on for your pleasure…nothing like a little mutual masturbation huh?

Enjoy, xxx c.

A Birthday Epiphany

I woke up this morning…overwhelmed by melancholy…tearful actually. But, my birthday is saturday and I am reflecting a bit…well I always seem to be reflecting, but perhaps a bit more than usual. I am thinking about the things I have accomplished and the things left undone…the “WHY” of it all.

In this relatively short lifespan, some would say…I have done quite a lot. Career-wise I have been lucky enough to occupy positions from the fashion industry to medicine…account executive to clinical psychologist and researcher. When it comes to artistic expression, I was never shy about exploring the lesser known underbelly of the NYC sex, swinger, and erotic art scene and I still believe the work that came out of that was thoughtful and maybe even a little bit impactful. My relationships, while there have been a few missteps; have only added luster and depth to my life.

What am I missing?

If I had to sum it up I suppose I would say family. It’s no secret; I’ve written about it previously in my blog, my childhood was not ideal (but whose is). I moved myself 3,600 miles at the age of 17 to NYC to “get away” from family. I was so naive and yet brilliant, now that I look back; there is no doubt in my mind, that move saved my life. I struggled. Oh how I struggled. But I managed to develop into a person I can say, now, I am proud to be. In truth I couldn’t have done it without the love of my friends and partners, who in fact are my family.

People say things like, “blood is thicker than water,” or “family comes first.” I hear these epitaphs, but I cannot really understand…those sentiments have never found truth in my life. I can say that I believe in love: mutual, non-judgmental, unconditional, and everlasting. That does not mean I believe in traditional, static, or defined love…but you knew that right?

Something funny just happened…I started writing this with the intent to talk about how amidst all of my accomplishments I DIDN’T HAVE A FAMILY…A WIFE OR HUSBAND…A CHILD…and yet, THIS is where I AM NOW:

I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER (for me)… I have YOU. My friends and lovers, the people in my life…YOU have helped me be who I am today and who I will become tomorrow. I realize in writing this…I do not lack in my life…I am full of COMPASSION…give and take…and I am so grateful that life has presented me with the opportunity to have and to give…I think, no I know, it is all I ever wanted.

Thank you…on my birthday…c.

When the energy of unbearable compassion is unceasing,
     In expressions of loving kindness,
     the truth of its essential emptiness is nakedly clear.
     This unity is the supreme unerring path.
     Inseparable from it, may we meditate day and night.

–Tibetan Prayer

What’s in a Name? (Part I: Conchita)

What’s in a name?

Well I don’t know about yours, but what’s in mine? WAY TOO MUCH is in my (given) name.

Growing up, in my family, every person and pet had AT LEAST three names. These names were invoked at different times and for varient reasons, but they were always GIVEN and EARNED. NO ONE chose their names; not their given name, nickname, alternate name, etc. A name was bestowed.

Often we have names we don’t care for, but we accept them…names are a necessary referential system of communication…But sometimes…sometimes we are given a name we simply cannot identify with, one that feels so foreign we cannot accept it.

I hate my given name.

It is interesting, it represents both mother’s and my father’s desires. But unfortunately it also represents the painfully divide between them.

My name was supposed to be: Mystery Dawn.

It was the 70’s. My mom was a hippy. No further explanation is necessary.

My father argued against this name choice. He exclaimed, “Children will make fun on her!” (because children didn’t make fun of me, ANYWAY…right…lol).

And so he suggested another more “regular” name that was also the name of my mother’s best friend and my mother added the “y” because…she had to have something from “Mystery”…or so the story goes.

Here is the problem: MY MOTHER’S BEST FRIEND, WAS MY FATHER’S LOVER. (The later, was not known until after my birth.)

So, my given name represents so much…that had nothing to do with me…and yet I bare the burden. The affair dissolved, the woman left. but, my name remains.

My (given) name = PAIN.

In my late teens I moved to NYC for college and met Gio-Shazzamity (no, that is not his given name…rather his earned name). Gio decided that I needed a new name, one that I had truly earned.

He settled on: CONCHITA

Why, you ask? Well,

1. I have a long given name with hyphens and syllables and such, so Conchita was meant to tease me, as a play on: Maria Conchita Alonso (famous 80’s actress)
2. Conchita is a derivation of conch, little shell…some thing cute and small…It’s also slang for vagina…which is great!
3. Conchita is also short for: La Immaculada Concepcion, which is actually a “real” name in Italian and latin cultures, although the more common shortened form is Connie. Either way, associating me with the immaculate conception is HILARIOUS.

It’s been 20 years since I earned Conchita. Almost half of my life. And to be honest, it feels more real than my  given-name. Because it was given to me out of affection, from a person who has known me longer than any one friend. It does not represent painful memories or unsolicited guilt. It is not the name I would have  picked for myself, but the best-fitting names rarely are. Rather Conchita, is the name picked for ME…

Hello, my name…well, one of my names…is Conchita. It’s a pleasure to meet you.

G.T.D.W.G. Party THURSDAY! Sexy Nerds, Naughty School Girls & Teachers Pets

Conchita Blaq & G.irlz T.hat D.ance W.ith G.irlz are BACK!

Join us as we re-kindle our love affair with the evening we’ve created
that caters to our sexy Ladies with like minds and hearts!

THIS TIME we celebrate all the sexy nerds, teachers pets and naughty
school girls out there! *wink*

Thursday, Sept. 29th from 7pm-11:30pm
@ ill bagatto
192 E. 2nd Street (btwn. Ave. A & B.)

**** LADIES ONLY ****
No Cover
Drink Specials
Live DJ

PRIVATE ROOM for our guests where anything goes Girlz!
*wink*

Location & Time:

ill bagatto

192 East 2nd Street (btwn Ave. A & B)

New York, NY

7pm – ?

See you there! xxx c

Welcome to PEEPSHOW @ PachaNYC (Saturday 6/25) with Chriss Vargas-DP Productions NYC!

Peep . show: n.

1. An exhibition of pictures or objects viewed through a small hole or magnifying glass. Also called raree show.

2. A short pornographic film presentation seen usually in a small coin-operated projection booth.

Ever wish for a look inside a woman’s boudoir?

Ever wonder what women fantasize about in the quiet moments between night and day?

This Saturday at PachaNYC for Chriss Vargas: PEEPSHOW III (DP Productions NYC)

I hope to give you a glimpse into JUST THAT…a look into the private sexual life of a woman…A bit of PURE fantasy? YES…of course…as it is meant to “set for the stage”…but I ALWAYS pull from real-life…how could I not?!

And so…let me set the stage for you, please step into my PEEPSHOW:

A woman…in LUST with another woman.

A slave to her fantasies, she is led into a space of DESIRE where she is at the whim of her mistress.

She submits…she bends to her mistress’ whims…until…the woman finds her own WILL, and THRUSTS that POWER onto her lover.

The woman explores her desires fully with her lover…trading submission for DOMINATION.

Again they come together…in each other’s arms.

Thank you…for sharing this moment with me and I do hope you can make it out this weekend! Xxx c