You know…the purpose of this blog was to have a forum to combine my disparate worlds, to have a place to express ALL of who I am in a free and public atmosphere, without judgment and yet accepting differing opinions.
This was never a site meant to dispense clinical advice, which is why I do not use my real name, nor was it meant to serve those who suffer from mental illness…honestly, I don’t think the internet in ANY capacity is an adequate means for psychiatric treatment.
This WAS and IS a blog to delve into the depths of our sensual nature while questioning the psychological motivation behind such drives…wishes…fantasies. EXPLORATION!
And for the most part I find this a place of great freedom…of expression…I find a bit of anonymity refreshing…and yet…as much love and encouragement…connection…and understanding, which I recieve ten-fold…AND I also get a bit of HATE in the mix!
And let me tell you…the hate is done with such fervor! In fact I often keep it posted here, it is usually something chastising me about being a clinician that is seriously trouncing ethical standards. Threats to “report” me, to the APA (American Psychological Association) I imagine, although no one EVER identifies themselves…Surprise! Surprise! In all honesty, this entity/pseudo-name if you prefer is NOT a mental health clinician…but I am…so I imagine rules are being bent…even broken…which is only cause for a smile with me…a crooked smile though…because:
WHO GIVES A SHIT!?!
Is the material contained in this blog so dangerous? I can answer that…NO. And I am well aware that it is in fact “colleagues” themselves that are lashing out…HATING…because as we all know it is is easiest to:
HATE WHAT WE FEAR IN OURSELVES
Well I suppose because it is what haunts us most…what whispers in our ear…late at night…just before slipping off to sleep…those unreachable desires, unexplored fantasies, barriers we yearn to break…the things that make us most fearful are the things we find easiest to HATE…and yet on the flip side they are things we…might…wonder about…something we secretly…WANT!
Not ALWAYS…there are clear HATE…like violence, racism, cruelty…but still there is a lot of room for hate of another color!
Take my haters, clearly versed in the ethics of being a clinician and yet…they never identify themselves…NEVER in fact reach out to contact me…Why? Well, I think the short answer is because they are in fact more than a little afraid that what they seem to have an almost visceral reaction to…is something they might YEARN FOR AND DESIRE to explore IN THEMSELVES…It is a theory…no less no more, but it makes me feel a little better…and in the event that someone shuts my little blog down…no worries…I will be back…it’s not like I use my real name anyway!
So I Salute: MY HATERS!
You give me reason for pause…and LOVE…xxx c.