There are a million ways in which this entry might go…and in the future I do hope to continue to explore this subject so near and dear to my identity…so think of this as Chapter One, incomplete and yet hopefully the beginning of an evolution of something much more complete and complex…a journey…of course I invite your comments and criticism.
I was recently asked to interview/audition for a new and very exciting reality series slotted for cable, the show is about various NYC women who are Bi-Sexual. I thought this was an interesting premise since we have all peaked at the L-Word and certainly there are enough gay-male reality shows to make it a viable topic of interest for viewers…not to mention, it is reality to me.
First off I want to state that the bi-sexual community suffers from an inherent identity crisis. We are neither gay nor straight, nor do we have the political backing of either the religious right or the liberal parties…in fact there aren’t many political policies unique to being bi-sexual! Can you think of any? No. That said, we don’t fit neatly into a category and thus garner scepticism from just about everyone.
We are in between.
And so…I think it would be nice to have a little “air time” a chance to create a more definitive identity and perhaps (and I shudder even as I say this) an “aware” (meaning non-objectifying) reality series is the vessel.
On the interview (taped to be aired as a trailer for the series) I was asked to answer a series of questions which really got me thinking about all of this…most related to somehow choosing either which sex was “better” or defining the differences between them…and you know perhaps this is what makes me truly bisexual: I cannot say who is “better” but I can definitely appreciate both sexes for their differences…their differences are in fact what make each so uniquely HOT!
SEX with WOMEN …
I want IT ALL with women…I want to touch, to taste, to smell, lick. I want to indulge in HER with all of my senses…I want ALL of her…including her emotions…her feelings…EVERYTHING!
This is not only a merging of bodies this is an enmeshment of souls to me, even if it is only casual sex. I may never see this woman again, but in that moment I want all of her self. Unlike when I am with a man, I don’t hesitate or question I simply am in the moment and try to share of much as I can with that woman…lost. I feel lost when I have sex with a woman…and interestingly (I feel) found when we part.
Call it centuries of like socialization or simply a narcissistic-fantasy, but I beleieve women really know women, from a sensual perspective…which brings me to what makes SEX WITH A MAN equally as wonderful…
I don’t want it all…because I am not sure I not what “all” means when it comes to a man. But what I want…I want raw…I want deep…I want full-physical contact!
With men, sex feels less intuitive and graceful and more like a kind of stumbling towards exstacy…it is no less ecstatic to me than sex with women…it is simply different. The connection is based more on physicality. I think that the emotion comes, but it is often not as well expressed, and often misundertood…still again it is just as beautiful.
I don’t want to simplify and present men as purely mental/physical and women as emotional/expressive…but there are things that each sex just does better…overall. Of course there are exceptions and to generalize is just boring…but to be honest…these differences between men and women are what make me LOVE THEM BOTH EQUALLY…hmmmnnn
Difference (men – women) = EQUAL (LOVE)
DIFFERENCE –> EQUAL –>LOVE
If only we could see all the world’s differences as such…xxx c